Am I the “Man Who Can’t Be Moved” or are you? We are all…
Live and Let Live;)
Man Who Can’t Be Moved by The Script performed by my college buddy Adam :)
Indiana University ‘04 - 1st time I fell in love with Straight No Chaser.
Am I the “Man Who Can’t Be Moved” or are you? We are all…
Live and Let Live;)
Indiana University - 1st time I fell in love with Straight No Chaser.
Am I the “man who can’t be moved” or are you? We are all…
Live and Let Live;)
My voice has been minimized! I set out to express myself creatively this month and found myself encountering some overbearing people!
They are opinionated, arrogant, and pushy! At first it was intriguing to see someone possess my admirable characteristics more vibrantly than me, but after awhile it was difficult to be heard. I couldn’t even sort out my own thoughts because I was bombarded with their thoughts and busy catering politely to them. My empathy and hospitality is not meant to be used for others’ advantage. It is to be cherished.
I need to do a better job finding my own sourcing of self expression and creativity without influence from critical onlookers.
My mental and emotional sanctuary must be protected better and my fortress must be built higher and stronger. I don’t want others to so easily infiltrate my emotional sanctuary anymore. I want to remain in Reason-Mind state or Wise-Mind state.
I’m too easily activating my Emotion-Mind state!!!! That is when I dont have clarity. I am unable to be rational. I become and escapist or enthusiast without regard for practicality and lose all reasonable sense. My impulses are not as extreme as a drug addict or gambler, but I will forgo my homework and feel guilt.
Help!!! How do I decipher more clearly how to react appropriately and limited the heightening of my senses? I need a go-to device, like a note card or cheat sheet that asks me a few questions when I begin feeling highly emotional!
Something is crawling and racing to get out of me. The flood gates are opening. My insides are reaching out and pulling themselves up from the deepest darkest of places within me. There is an outpouring of emotions, thoughts, confessions so compelling that it must be spoken then written for the existing world.
I sat in the theater with a nervous feeling as I watched Dark Knight. I hesitated to follow my sisters into the theater as I swore I would not see a film during which so many lives were tragically taken in Aurora, Colorado.
The anxiety inside was not exactly that of fear for dying but more of fear of feeling the terror experienced by those that sat in the same seats as a man gassed and shot people to death. I imagined what it must’ve felt like to be them. I imagined my sisters’ lives at stake as they sat next to me. I imagined seeing him walk in and stand in front of our rows shooting. I wasn’t scared for my life at all. I was more afraid for those around me. I feared my inability to help. I feared my useless existence.
I am here on this earth to serve a higher importance. My existence serves a purpose. I feel it inside of me. As my grandparents, loved ones, and friends passed away, I see more how much pain is endured in this world. More importantly, I see more than ever that I am the modern day Joan d’Arc and I have not fulfilled my duty in this universe, in this time.
I have found that so much in my life is intertwined. All my pasts events, strange occurrences, dreams, movie films watched are related in some way in order to send me messages; signs towards the correct path for my unique journey. There is a lesson to be learned sure enough.
The movie showed a scene where the Gotham Police would not let “Robin” lead a school bus full of children cross the bridge in exodus. The policemen feared the threat of Bayne, that if anyone tried to exit the bomb would be triggered. They blew up the bridge so no one could pass. It was a sad yet very real moment of our reality.
I have seen how people are willing to fall blind victims of threats and fear. The cower like sheep while penetrating already deep wounds with poison in hopes of saving themselves. Tirelessly, I observe peers fall victims to this power daily. Turning their backs on each other.
Another scene that invoked personal memories was when the captain tried recruiting help from a former officer. The officer decided to hide out in his apartment with his family in hopes of riding out the nuclear threat. Even when the captain told him the old remedy was to fit the evil from within Gotham because no national aid was on its way, the officer refused to show bravery or courage.
This is a character portrayal of a certain type of people in our society. They are the fair weather showmen. They show their face in god times, but hide when times get tough and real courage is required. They piggy-back off of the distressed and strained soldiers who march onward as heroes. Often times, I hear “save yourself,” or “it’s not my problem to fix.” there are times when these explanation are well-deserved, but when suffering is evident; in sight, and one turns a blind eye in order to avoid sacrifice of personal welfare a.k.a time, wallet, or perceived bodily harm, that is immoral in my eyes. God created us in a society of brothers and sisters in order to care for each other. It is the obsessed self-preservation and notion of a possible individual existence that hinders us from truly becoming a better and stronger civilization.
The character of Alfred and Luscious were commendable for their bore the burden of nurturing and guiding the last posterity into a savior of humankind. Their task was truly difficult. It didn’t require just skill and dedication. It required blood, sweat, love, deep-rooted pain, anxiety, and exhaustion. Therefore, commend all mothers, guardians, and parents for their relentlessly efforts to guide and raise us in a dangerous world. There carry this burden through life of constant doubt and regret. They are always in the dark & somewhat unsure if they are the cause for our downfall. Mothers always blame themselves hardest.
The Hope theme replays through the film to reiterate its important as the only thing that fuels humankind. There was hope mentioned in the prison where the prisoners could attempt to climb out. They were allowed to see sunlight daily and a possibility of freedom. That possibility was dangled like a flaming carrot. So hungry that you will eat it, but you know if you do try you may die from it. The risks of believing in Hope is that you may fall flat on your face. So much CAN be lost in the moment that one falls from hope; motivation, self-confidence, belief, trust, and awareness. Yet, so much CAN also be gained from falling. That is the difficult lesson we all strive to learn and some die without every learning; how to get back on the horse.
Bruce got back up after falling from the wall several times. He had hope to begin with and kept it through his trials. After falling, he gained more though. He gained determination, desire to question his methods, started asking the half-blind doctor, and gained perseverance which lead to confidence and self-trust. He regained his instincts; self-awareness. the most important skill/tool at our natural fingertips!!! Without it we are handicapped.
I think about my life an all the situations where I have persevered and it pieces together my self-awareness. I regain my knowledge of myself, who I am, my skills, my abilities, my needs, my strengths and weaknesses, my powers. I regain power from the awareness. I challenge myself everyday to push forward, overcome hurdles and civilizations discontent, as well as my own demons attempts to coward my desires/beliefs/and values.
I am empowered by this knowledge and by HoPe! I am blessed. With this knowledge and this love for my lived ones alive an passed away, I vow to never hurt those around me, but to wear a body of armor like Joan d’Arc and protect my body, mind, soul. & spirit from all evils. Evils like predators, rapists, tricksters, manipulators, lost souls, degenerates, and also from mental negativity. Those will weaken my ability and power to self-preserve.
My body is a tomb, an Egyptian tomb built as a fortress against invasion. It harnesses immaculate powers that are mine. It embodies a shield of protection against all negative forces. It safe guards my heart, mind, and soul. Only God passes through freely. I surrender to God’s will. God,myGod, will guide me on a path of righteous. As she does so now.
I look to my enemies and no longer desire to hurt them. I have immense amounts of pity for them as they are shriveling degenerates and immortals to society who bare the burden of living in a hell created just for themselves maybe even brought on by themselves and their hellish demonic immoral ways. I pity but I do not have a single desire to harm. For their burn in their own misery daily.
I live in freedom, love, positivity, brilliance, and Care. My world is graceful, forgiving, and plentiful. I have only begun to experience This world.
When I was young, yes. Also when I was in d.c. Walking along the park. A tree stood and a swooping branch hung overhead. The sunset soaked the sky in orange & the capitol building stood in the background. I felt this brilliant and gracious world of mine again when I was in college in between controlling and manipulative relationships. I did t not hold on to the gift of TGIF Good world an allow evil or Bad to lurk into my mind and followed bad. I was manipulated and cheated. So to relearn this lesson I threaded through mucky waters and heavy storms of pain, rage, shame, & torment until I learned tI truly value my life.
I guard my mind body soul and spirit now. The life which my patents carry the burden of guiding and watching me over me to their best abilities. They suffered as they stood witness to my stumbling through mistakes and eminent danger. I bless my parents. I bless my TRUE friends and sisters. I now guard my vessel my tomb my temple so they my body mind spirit and soul may evolve into a self-aware and truly skillfully creature ready for flight; able to defend, descend, and take action when need be.
There are no coincidences in this life. Every event, experience, person, thing in our lives are placed strategically to guide us on a righteous path & if we lose our way, the universe will relentlessly send us more lessons to learn until we make better decisions, evolve, & grow. Our true purpose is inside us.
I believe we are who we at meant up be all along, but like an onion we have layers to shed before we can see the light free and vividly! That is when we will flourish in glory and grace completely and wholly. Follow your guiding star & never give up hope on you or the world; persevere.
Thank you God for gifting me with a life full of magic, power, mystique. Thank you for the little moments that make me raise my camera phone to snap a photo. Thank you for the happiness that we are able to bring to each other when we are patient and graceful. Magnanimity in our hearts, we are guided towards the path of righteousness, love, and fulfillment.
I have learned something new about myself with each different encounter I have had this past month with different people; acquaintances, friends, or family members. Most strikingly, I have learned how to allow myself to be my own friend.
I like myself a lot more now. I see my own reactions to others. I hear my tender voice as I console someone. I feel the vigor as I debate an issue for which I am passionate. I can feel again. All I have wanted for this past year was to feel again.
I prayed to God and ask to feel again. I prayed for strength and guidance. My God, my magical and mystical God/Goddess guided me and lead me to the place inside myself where I could find all the answers to my questions.
By stepping out, engaging, embracing the world, I learned that all the answers and powers are already inside me. Within myself, I have the immaculate power to make great changed for this world, for my world.
Remember: Friendships will teach us more about ourselves than about the people we are forming friendships with.
We Are Young….
Everybody’s Starry-eyed…. It’s a Good Good Life…..
Song lyrics that ring a ding ding in my ear. They send not only a tune into my mind, but a vibration that electrifies my synapses as it courses through the veins of my brain. It is electrifying my lower, right, and left lobe. It is activating my body and awakening my soul! My mind is racing with ideas now.
There are so many ideas, thoughts, day dreams racing through my mind. I am calculating ratios and rationals at light speeds. I am tirelessly categorizing these ideas into compartments of my mind. Tiny cardboard boxes are over filling as I organize my “to-do” lists. These lists expand much further than simple tasks, like laundry. It encompasses things like build my own non-profit organization and start a home delivery bakery as well as jump on a flight to Dubai to dance the night away!
Pause-Time for self-observation. I am waving my arms in the air and dancing to the music of my life as I write this blog. I am full of energy and feelings. I have a large need for expression. Conclude: I am a Heavy Machinery Operator, as I can fluidly multitask creative writing, listening to music, organize my feelings in a thoughtful manner, and move my body to the beat of my Pandora music playlist.
Alright…we all want love, whether or not we are willing to admit it. I have been doing a lot of soul searching and healing from past mistakes. I’m getting my toes wet and getting back to my roots. At the same time, I am taking the old techniques and hobbies and blending it with the new me. I am hoping this new me becomes something that is holistic enough to serve. I want to dish out a stupendous serving of MOI A LA MODE! I want love.
Step 1: Friendships, dating, hobbies, and experiences.
I have the hobbies down. Started participating in team sports. Woo! What a challenge it was to start. I am no quitter now that I have appeared for the first game. I have started baking more…well, I invested the big bucks for some bulk ingredients. I have put my mind to accomplishing some career goals…taken the steps to get me to a middle point and I am almost there. I have accomplished a lot of my goals this year, but I don’t stop to congratulate myself. Congrats! Go you! There I did it.
Next stop, friendships and dating. The friendship part is rolling along quite smoothly. I have rekindle some friendships and had some enlightening conversations. I think I am a smooth and charming talker. I am definitely not as socially anxious as I used to be. Dating on the other hand, not so easy.
Dating….dating, dating, dating…..UGH ARGH YUCK F***! That is all that comes to my mind and pardon my french. S’il vous plait. I am having a hard time with this next step. It is kind of important to master if I want to find love. Ugh…..
Fears: Lies, uncomfortableness, feeling guilty, awkward moments, need to hide my past, fear of sinking back into my old immoral, less virtuous ways, fears of shame and regret, inability to say, “no” basically. Inability to be selfish, be me, be outspoken. Afraid of getting taunted, bullied, or hurt for being me, outspoken, selfish, or shining.
Basically, I need to be comfortable and confident shining as me, just me. I need to erase the fears from the past and trust in the new day. Trust in my new ability to judge character and react to situations that may lead to danger or just discomfort. I need to keep a cool head on my shoulders. I need to seek meditation and clarity first.
For now, I think that is the most important step. I want to keep being single, walking this path, taking MY journey through life, and learning what I WANT and how to GET WHAT I WANT without guilt and shame! Then, I will be able to move past with a healed soul. Focus on my inner needs!!! <—look that subject up on the web. It is amazing what you will find and learn!!!!
YAY! My inner needs! What I like, love, and need. What calms and soothes me. Then I can carry a wholesome me into a relationship or into just dating. I will be able to spot-on recognize the qualifiers and non-qualifiers for MY DATING LIFE!